hahhas, cute not my brother, :D

laughs, hmmms. so yeaps. :)
life has been alright. school is still tirring.
but with entertainment. hahhas.
so yeah, ciao !

due to twin constant complain
on why i dont update. i decided to update this lovely livejournal of mine.
life hasnt really been on cloud 9 for me.
im praying for a miricle tomorrow. seriously. >:
im heading off to malaysia very very soon.
and im belly happy about it. HAH.
(:

im missing shaoyan so much now,
i would give him a warm embrace just to say hello.
hahahhahas. (:
caught ghost of girlfriends past. awesome show.
not bad. quite to my liking. (:
so yeahs. chill out. till than.

with , haley.

 

with life having alot of ups and downs
you need to stop and thank afew who made life pleasent for you.
by remembering all this, i want to show you. how much you were treasured.
and for all, it will not be forgotten.

 
dear girl , vanessa.
for being my bitch and ultimate girlfriend.
for going shopping with, watching movies. gossiping.
and ofcourse youknowwhat. (:
one year coming soon babe, iloveyouuuuu.



dear girl elin,
for always being there. though the times we spent aint much.
you are still much loved alright.
love you babeeeeeee.



the bugger hongteck,
for being my bFF.
sending me home on day to day basis.
much appreciated aye !



eugene lim,
for making me arise to a smile everyday.
for always talking to me like every momment keeping me company
(: much appreciated.
you caught me tounge tied manznz/



royette kuya,
for the great music made! hahhas.
except heartless. tsk. you will be a fine guy aite.
hahahs. (:



eugene teo, melodramatic twin
without you, whos gonna dramarama diva with me?



angeline loke! my emo patner.
always there to emo with ! hahahs.
and also who to craze over yyl together?



chan ziying,
who to go toilet best with?
to crap and make merry. (:




janice yak !
though we started off with the tsking thing.
i still enjoy every mommenty with you.
aaron is way better! (:
agree with me qiqi ! (:



geneva anne! hahahs.
my best chinese class partner.
(: hahahs, what is chinese BORING lessons
without you.



yeo kaijie.
its been really long since i sat down and talked to you.
but still like ever, voted my best brother ! (:

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NUR FIFA.
for being sucha a big bitch for me.
all the times we spend tgt in baND.
DAIRY WRITING, boyfriend stories.
i love you babe. hahhas.



nabil taha,
for every single sned home together.
and also times where you helped me msg him! HAHAS.
thankyou very much. ( middle finger )

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IRA SYG.
for always listening to the never ending stories.
to telling me some of yours. esp abt H. hahahs. laughs.
all the times spent together are just great manznnznz/
you are much loved.

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PUTRI.
for all the stories and retarded times we shared.
(: hahahs. much appreciated. !




CHUA HE AN! hahahs.
my fan club president. (:
thankyou for all the efforts in making me the best superstar.
HAHAS.



Dulcie Jean Rae ! (:
for being ever so crappy. hahhs.
and great story book sharer.
tell you what, there is book 5 ! slap the person's face. hahas.



Regina Gorda.
for always being there to share a horny book.
and a 4 person patner. heh. (:
much appreciated babe.



vivian chong,
crazy poke poke. hahas.
please be more gentle women.
hahahs. thanks for all the fun times laa (:


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MARC LEE.
for the endless support you given me.
for the endless smiles and ready hugs you have for me.
i love you boy. hahas. forever.
(: PLAYMATES for life.
hahahs.



as they always say, best for the last.


baby boo. for always being there.
(: all the encouraging  words and the ups and down
you been there for me. (:
i thankyou. (: and boy, i loveyou. hahahs.

maybe because..
 

 

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hmmms, home? what is it excatly. i really dont know,
for me, its a place where i once could let myself be happy.
let myself be freed from all troubles. but now,
i have to act like the only thing in my mind is study.
i have to act like i dont give a damn towards everything.
i have to act like im forever cheerful.
i have to act like i have no worries.
i have to always put a smile on my face.
i have to forever be patient towards ivan.
i have to never talk back against mum and dad.
i have to always take the balme for ivans mistake.
i have to care for everyones well being.
i have to control my emotions no matter what.
i have to , i have to.
there is so much things in my mind. so much troubles ahead.
mum and ivan just had a big fight. ivan in rebellious age.
its hard to control. i tried to be understanding. but i cant.
i try to explain to the both of them. i try to solve things fast.
ivan used to ask me, why fight with mummy?
but now. he is doing it. i hate it when he cries. i hate to see him weak.
i hate to see people bully my brother. but why?
cant i do anything. it makes me feel weak. i want to help him.
but i cannot. i tried. but its no use. this feeling sucks.
but what can i do?

when time passes so quickly, you only have a limited time.
you have to work up fast. you have to do it good.
that so many things are messed up and missed.
so today, i want to reflect and share with you. my dear reader.
what i miss in my life.
i miss/love : eating candy,going shopping,sec1/1'06,faris,irah,linda,
angeline,dominic,endy,eugeneteo,elin,alvin,weiwei,crapping,laughing,
going to band and suffer,fifa,joash,fitri,christina chong, christina chong,
stevansius,swimming,rainbows,stargazing,preety flowers,lucuas,
lolipops,jiashen,hu yu wei,taiwan dramas,retail thereapy, running,
eating icecream,brendan loo,jumpshots,carls jr fries,onion rings,
vivo trips,girls outing,sunflowers,yellow,cambodia, taiwan,
thailand,cousins,chalet,jeremy,adina,marcus,jordan,darren,danielng
mable,proper camera,laughing,smiling,smoking,drinking,
pasta,good food,garlic bread,aren,timothy,mummy,daddy,ivan's smile,
jiashen,stitch,gabrieltay,elinaik,jeremy,eugene lim,oyette,ziying,geneva,hean
jance,nasrul,aaronyan,hongteck,加森,you,joashsim,smoking,shengpheng,
mable,bbQ,chalet,more and more.

i have nothing more to say.
cause im frigging tired already.
so yeaps. ciao.

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you know, how much i think im in love with you.
i got so much on mind now, only smiley is you.
my george baby. hahahs. so cute! he looks like some korean star.
(: hee. so cute, let me stay happy by you like this okay! (:
much luvs sweetheart.

silence is the loudest sound ever.

when im keeping silence, it doesnt means that i have nothing to say.
its just too much for me and you.

when im keeping silence, it doesnt mean that i dont wanna speak.
its just that the words that i want to say, may hurt and i might regret.

when im keeping silence, it doesnt mean that im not thinking of wad to say.
thousand of words are running about.

when im keeping silence, it means, i really dont wanna hear your sound too.

So lets us both be silent for a while.
maybe things could be better.

given another choice.
i'll love first and more this time.
but i know, its over. and goodbye.


( so, and than... )

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